Idle Thoughts

Idle Thoughts

My mind’s racing through the events of my life 
My ups, my downs, my joys and my strife 

Looking at the people who love me, and the ones that don’t 
Seeing my goals in life, the things I need and want 

My passions, my desires, my feelings deep within 
My loves, my hates, my blessings and my sins 

I can feel the strength that I’ve acquired, and my moments of purity 
I see it all through my third eye, the one that looks inside of me 

Winding through my life story, the journey to get me here 
Exploring my successes and failures, trusts and fears 

My insecurities I mask and the flaws in my reflection 
My constant need for acceptance, my desire for perfection 

I’ve given too much of myself to try to appease others 
Whether it’s parents, relationships, sisters or brothers 

So life has brought me to this point, a moment of clarity 
Straight faced, deep in thought, no time for hilarity 

Staring blankly into space, can’t even see what’s ahead 
Totally incoherent to what’s around me in this bed 

My eyes are wide open, searching left to right 
But I can’t see where I’m at, there’s no reality in sight 

I’m here but I’m not, in the physical sense 
It’s clear but it’s not, looking through my third lens 

So my mind has traveled the journey, its given me relief 
To the pains of my life, the losses and the grief 

To the triumphs of my life, my perfect imperfections 
The convergence of me living in self-satisfaction 

I’ve had to make the vow to be who I desire to be 
Because no-one can live my life for me but me 

So as I sit back and think of the joy and pain life wrought 
I just let my mind wonder through my “Idle Thoughts”