You keep running away from pain ,you keep running away from every possible reality that comes to your face .You keep drowning in mediocrity and in oblivion because your mindset is a battle.You think Usain Bolt would be the best athlete if he gave up ? not a CHANCE .You don't win battles by running away from battle fields .If you dont deal with your demons they will make sure you never see the gates of success.DONT COMPLICATE THINGS ,success is easy "master the basics".As long as there is breathe there is hope.