Am I Having Fun Now?: Anxiety, Applause and Life’s Big Questions, Answered

’A brilliant representation of anxiety made hilarious.’ - Romesh Ranganathan

Does peaking in high school ruin you for life?

Was Miley Cyrus right, is it all about the climb (when it comes to building a career?)

And what - scientifically - is the best way to mend a broken heart?

Comedian Suzi Ruffell is considering life’s big questions.

In this brutally honest, funny, and often moving memoir, Suzi winningly tells her life story, and asks a host of experts to answer the tricky questions it prompts along the way. Diamond life advice comes from the likes of Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Dr Kirren Schnack, and more.

From masking anxiety with musical theatre and struggling to find her groove at school, on stage, and in her love life, to (eventually) coming out, falling in love, and becoming a parent, Suzi lays her life bare with trademark wit, verve and style.

Am I Having Fun Now? is riveting, relatable and revealing. Studded with brilliant, cutting observations on feminism, being working class in the world of arts and comedy, LGBTQ+ equality and the up- and downsides of ambition, it’s perfect reading for fans of books by Fern Brady, Sarah Pascoe, Elizabeth Day and Tom Allen.

Suzi Ruffell is an award-winning stand up comedian, writer, radio presenter and podcast host. She appears regularly on TV favourites such as Live at the Apollo, The Jonathan Ross Show and Mock the Week, and sells out headline shows at leading venues around the country. Her video clips - on everything ranging from smear tests to having a geezer dad - have been viewed by tens of millions on TikTok, Youtube and Instagram.

Suzi’s hit podcasts include Like Minded Friends with best mate Tom Allen, Big Kick Energy with Maisie Adam, and nine seasons of her solo offering, Out, on which she has interviewed LGBTQ+ luminaries including Dame Kelly Holmes, Self Esteem, Scott Mills, Hannah Gadsby, the Reverend Richard Coles, Mae Martin and Skin.