I''m just learning to walk and my brother still shaky on his feet, when we were committed to the Bureau of Child Welfare in New Haven, Connecticut for the State of Connecticut. The reasons given, were desertion by mother; father unable to provide suitable care. The Bureau took charge of our lives on October 24th, 1934 and I would remain in their jurisdiction until my eighteenth birthday on August 12th, 1951. My parents were divorced on March 12th, 1937 as documents procured on June 15th, 1992 in New Haven, Connecticut, provided this information. An outline of placements since August 12th, 1933, my birth date are contents of: "no minor children " ? also the detailed abuses in foster homes, relatives homes, my mother and her constant interference in my life, so much as to ''The Impossible Mamma'' was a name given her by a social worker, who was in charge of my Case 1200, for the State of Connecticut, and my father who stated ''that he was not going to deny himself all his pleasures in order to help pay for the children, '' The chapters are referenced as placements as each of these and the conditions I was subjected to are verified through approximately one hundred pages of documentation in parallel with my added dialogue surrounding these reports. There are reports from psychologists and doctors from my health and growth as to my mother''s ability to raise two children, as clergy and others were investigated for information to her qualifications. The lack and type of food, the "quarry slave tactics" applied were only some of the mental and physical abuses that are woven into the disturbing and depressing pages as an effort to provide dialogue where loss of identify was mired into my life and dignity succumbed to fear and intimidation. Alfred