忘秋 Forgetting Autumn：林鷺漢英雙語詩集

[想念母親]

想念母親我心碎裂

一如擊碎海岸的太平洋波濤

那是我擦也擦不乾的眼淚

她的孤單竟舖成一張單薄得

回不了家的床

母親躺在電話線無法抵達的

那一端

想念母親陽光下的慈顏

我來摸摸她日夜愛戀的花草

等待加護病房的門開

告訴她

供桌上的佛祖聞得到花香

她白色的壽衣並沒有黃斑

繡花壽鞋上

已替她縫上兩顆發亮的珍珠

它們的光彩如燈

來日將一路照亮她回歸靈山

想念母親

在吻別她的額頭以後

陪我趕路的太陽也開始疲憊

逐漸沒入

兒時曾經無憂歡笑的海那一邊

想起母親

輕輕碰觸就叫出的聲音

有如針筒

在我的心臟注射她的痛

想念母親的想念

她多麼想回家

即便耗去她一生的老宅

骨架也已如同她一般衰敗

想念母親的寂寞

我變成一座蓄洪的水壩

滿溢的眼淚

在深夜不自覺默默地宣洩

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[Missing Mother]

Missing mother, my heart shatters and cracks

Like waves from the Pacific Ocean crushing against the coast

Those are tears that I cannot dry even if I tried

Her loneliness has made itself into

A bed so thin that it cannot return home

Mother lies where phone lines cannot reach

On that end

Missing mother’s kind face under the sun

I touch the flowers and plants that she loved by day and by night

Waiting for the doors of the intensive care unit to open

To tell her

The Buddha on the altar can smell the fragrance of the flowers

Her white shroud does not in fact have yellow spots

On her embroidered burial shoes

There already are two shiny pearls that have been sewn on for her

Their luster is like a lamp

In future days they will give light on her way to the western paradise

Missing mother

After kissing her goodbye on the forehead

The sun that had hurried with me on my journey has began to grow tired

And has began to gradually fall into

That place by the sea where there was carefree laughter from childhood

Thinking of mother

The voice that would call out if gently touched

Like a syringe

Injecting her pain into my heart

The sense of yearning when missing mother

How she longed to return home

Even if to the old house that consumed her entire life

The framework was waning like she was

The loneliness of missing mother

I have become a dam that stores floodwater

Overflowing tears

Unconsciously, silently draining off in the depths of the night



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[牡羊星圖]

廣袤的天空布滿剛強的柔情和堅毅的野心

我曾經迷航在那張上蒼設定好的星圖

妳問我親子為何在人世間別無選擇的相遇

文字的敏感度證實學識的晶片必植入孤獨

可以從漢聲小百科裡自學狗爬式泳技

卻無法掌控一顆球在操場自由滾動的速度

終究已讓自己握住一方被蓄意遺棄的國土

讓郁郁花草默默地植株在自己的土地

那隱藏原生密碼的染色體也正複製著理型

牡羊對自我解釋固執來自性別弱勢的抗衡

我把朝代的對照表布置在書房小天地

想像恁妳依照自己的意象規劃的專屬星圖



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[The Star Map of Aries]

The vast sky is abound with staunch tenderness and determined ambition

I once drifted from the course of the star map that Heaven set out

You asked me why parents and children have no other choice but to meet in this world

The sensitivity of words confirms that loneliness must be implanted in the chip of learning

You could learn by yourself how to swim the doggy paddle from the Children’s Encyclopedia

Yet could not control the speed of a ball freely rolling across the playground

It has ultimately allowed oneself to hold onto the side whose land has been deliberately abandoned

To let the luscious plants and flowers silently be planted on one’s own land

The chromosome with the hidden code of protogenesis is also replicating forms

[想念母親]

想念母親我心碎裂

一如擊碎海岸的太平洋波濤

那是我擦也擦不乾的眼淚

她的孤單竟舖成一張單薄得

回不了家的床

母親躺在電話線無法抵達的

那一端

想念母親陽光下的慈顏

我來摸摸她日夜愛戀的花草

等待加護病房的門開

告訴她

供桌上的佛祖聞得到花香

她白色的壽衣並沒有黃斑

繡花壽鞋上

已替她縫上兩顆發亮的珍珠

它們的光彩如燈

來日將一路照亮她回歸靈山

想念母親

在吻別她的額頭以後

陪我趕路的太陽也開始疲憊

逐漸沒入

兒時曾經無憂歡笑的海那一邊

想起母親

輕輕碰觸就叫出的聲音

有如針筒

在我的...

【總序】詩推台灣意象／李魁賢

想念母親•Missing Mother
牡羊星圖•The Star Map of Aries
兒子當兵•My Son’s Military Service
詩的天窗•Poetry’s Skylight
玫瑰•Rose
最後一眼•The Last Glance
道之門•The Door of Tao
一個問題•Una Pregunta
給詩人米思特拉爾•To Gabriela Mistra
詩在深夜的Ciego de Ávila•Poetry in the Depths of the Night in Ciego de Ávila
垂死•Dying
給索南措•For Suo Nan Cuo
青年Thakur•A Youth Named Thakur
在或不在•Absence or Presence
面對喜瑪拉雅山脈•Facing the Himalayas
銀手鐲•The Silver Bracelet
你的歌聲•Your Singing Voice
風神•God of the Wind
黃昏海岸•The Coast at Dusk
海之約•The Pact of the Sea
異想之境•The Realm of the Whimsical
紫色的風鈴絮語•Rolling Whispers of the Purple Bellflower
紅豆情•The Sentiment of the Red Bean
秋•Fall
我的窗•My Window
玫瑰的顏色•Color of the Rose
故鄉ê風•Wind in My Hometown
風的容顏•Confession to the Wind
歸鄉路（一）•The Road back Home (I)
歸鄉路（二）•The Road back Home (II)
這一頁•This Page
傷心夢土•Broken-hearted Land of Dreams
旗的私語•Whispers of a Flag
鷹的眼罩•An Eagle’s Hood
王者的天空•The Tyrant’s Sky
不要隨便跟詩人握手•No Thoughtless Handshaking with a Poet
你該流淚•You Ought to Cry
霧中樹•Trees in the Mist
一朵花•A Flower
遺忘吧•Lost in Time
曲•Song
綺情•Affairs

作者簡介•About the Author
譯者簡介•About the Translators

【總序】詩推台灣意象／李魁賢

想念母親•Missing Mother
牡羊星圖•The Star Map of Aries
兒子當兵•My Son’s Military Service
詩的天窗•Poetry’s Skylight
玫瑰•Rose
最後一眼•The Last Glance
道之門•The Door of Tao
一個問題•Una Pregunta
給詩人米思特拉爾•To Gabriela Mistra
詩在深夜的Ciego de Ávila•Poetry in the Depths of the Night in Ciego de Ávila
垂死•Dying
給索南措•For Suo Nan Cuo
青年Thakur•A Youth Named Thakur
在或不在•Absence or Presence
面對喜瑪拉雅山脈•Facing the Hi...