matt swegler

For most of my life I have been an intensely private person. It's hard to share anything about yourself until you have embraced your true heart. While my mother isn't currently on Earth with her family and loved ones she still exists in Heaven. Being that both of my paternal and maternal grandparents were dead before I was born her death in 2001 hit me very hard. It turns out this sorrow would change me in a way that I never expected. A God-given talent that was dormant in me was awakened after her death. While in the grieving process I wrote my first two poems that didn't belong in the trash. Yes, since those first two I have written many more. Like the first two, I have dedicated each of them to my mother in Heaven.

Even now I don't consider myself special...I'm just being me. Your blue eyes remind me of a clear blue sky. If someone said those words to me for most of my life I would have corrected them and told them my eyes are more like the ocean, but not because it's possible to drown in their beauty. On the contrary, if you stare into my blue eyes long enough you could drown in the loneliness and sorrow that you see in them. If someone wondered why is that I'd reply when U see my blue eyes you are seeing the state of my heart. My blue eyes are relaying one simple message and that is my kind-heart longs for a very special woman to enter my life. Except for the last handful of years I didn't allow anybody to look into my blue eyes unless it was absolutely necessary. The main reason for me doing this is because I didn't want anybody to see the loneliness and sorrow in them. That was reserved for me and even I didn't like to see it. Therefore, even though I'm considered a descent looking guy I wasn't that fond of looking into the mirror. Now, I don't mind standing in front of the mirror and or letting someone see my blue eyes.