trusting in and yielding to him who is love

I was a 40 year old believer/christian that was spiritually bankrupt, sick and tired of being sick and tired of daily life, and very self reliant, self sufficient, self willed. The best way I found to cope with all of what I was experiencing was drinking alcohol and after 25 years of drinking I found myself drinking to live and living to drink at the age of 40. I knew there had to be another way of living daily life than what I had done over the past 25 years and by the grace of God. I met a guy who became a decently close friend/acquaintance after about 6/7 months of meeting him. One evening after knowing him for about 6/7 months, he asked me if I had ever thought about getting any help to stop drinking. My answer to him that evening was no, but after talking about it for a little while that evening, I made the decision to check in to a treatment/detox center the next morning. Little did I know, that decision would send me down a road of meeting who I needed to meet, learn what I needed to learn, and implement all of it as best I could into my everyday thinking and the life thereof only to be set free from drinking and also set free from every self willed/self reliant decision that I had ever made in my life. Every tear, every sleepless night, every toxic relationship, every financial burden, and every so called feelings of doubt, anxiety, anger, pride, jealousy, malice, desire to drink and lust of the self driven/self reliant living I had lived for 25 years would be left behind only to step into and live my daily life in the freedom that Jesus has to offer anyone who will Trust in and Yield to his will for their life. I’m Terry Williams and was born in Arkansas. I grew up in Tennessee and a few things I enjoy doing are afternoon naps, spending time with family, bowling, working, and doing anything that can produce an adrenaline rush like riding motorcycles, 4wheelers, and driving fast cars. Within everyday life, I enjoy seeking the Lords will for my life and to do that I know that I have to do my part by denying myself and the will thereof so that I may be willed to be, to do, to have, and to accomplish all that his will for my everyday life has to offer.